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Reentry

The Traveler’s Journal

My reentry into the “normal” world from wherever I go is particularly difficult and sometimes quite violent. Not violent in the normal sense, no, but violently jarring. It is as if I am yanked away from where I am and thrown back to where I came from. It’s like the sudden acceleration of a rollercoaster. In the early days it was far less of a shock, I’d be going about my business, and then suddenly become aware that I was in my past. But in the span of a year, it has became a struggle to pass between states of consciousness.

There is resistance in passing from now to a memory marker, as if I am not supposed to go there. But its still involuntary. I don’t get to choose when I’ll end up or when I’ll go, but I know when it is going to happen because I get a pressure right behind my eyes. So far, I seem to be oscillating within a five year span with the occasional jump to my very early childhood or very recent past. When I “return,” as it were, only a minute or two have passed, and I quickly compose myself and continue with whatever I was doing. However, I am left with a particularly nasty type of headache that consumes the whole of my head. The pain will last for hours, days even, and will suddenly disappear. No pain relievers are capable of handling this type of pain, so it must be endured.

-C.P. 10/16/2009